There is no real point to this blog entry.
I wanted to say tht just to make this clear.
I have been staying up for quite a while, and last night I slept less than four hours, and I fel dead tired, but I can't fall asleep at all, so I'm just writing.
consider this, maybe, like a review on everything that's been happening with a quick update.
also, this might be my ony chance to open up, because I don't do that when I have slept well and I become more talkative at nights anyway.
Let's begin with the present moment and work back in time from there, and see what I can remember.
anyhow, I am in my room, half-sitting, half-laying on my bed and typing. It is dark, and the light from my screen isn't enough to luminate anything except me and some of the wall behind me. It is quiet, even though I have earphones on, I can hear the sounds that the house makes and everything our neighbors do (which is nothing, they are most probably asleep like everyone in our house). Just a few moments ago I logged in with great difficulties, as blogger didn't seem to accept my password and I had to change it. Oh well.
Last weekend, (god, was that a week ago already?) I met a friend I hadn't seen in a long time, and she told me about her little sister having weird symptoms, oddly similar to the things that I'm experiencing. Then there was the thing where I figured out a name for yet another villager, The Nurse (5th) and such.
and then the Call. I developed a fear for my old ringtone and had to change it to even be able to answer the phone.
a lot of stuff has happened.
but, I also have to clarify something, which might seem peculiar to you. About my parents. "Aren't they worried?" "Haven't they noticed anything?" Well, remember the time when I lost about two weeks or sp from my memory? I have no idea what happened then, but if I had been missing (as I woke up from a forest) my mom hadn't noticed anything. Almost right after that happened I actually asked my mom about anything abnormal, but she said I should know myself, I had been home. So I asked if there had been anything abnormal in her opinion, she only started blabbering about a ķitchen cabinet seeming a little different in colour that whatbit used to be and blah blah. I have been asking my other family members but they haven't noticed anything.
I might have been actually home, but something gives me the feeling that I wasn't...
I'M JUST SO TIRED.
If you have any questions, contact me on twitter(@NorthernDarkn3z) or comment on the blog.
Goodnight.
-Darkn3z
10/26/2014
10/23/2014
Old Friends
I mentioned that I would have a busy weekend earlier, and I did.
What was taking my time?
I had an old friend call me, Someone I was friends with for a couple of years during my 2nd-5th grades, until she moved away. We kept writing letters to each other for a short while, but then we moved on. I didn't know Katja had my number, which of course made me feel suspicious. She had read my blog and realized it was me behind it for various reasons, and found my number (from one of the letters we used to write to each other, she said.) and called me, because of something she didn't yet mention, but she wanted to meet me in person. I hesitantly agreed to meet her.
She didn't live exactly far away from me anymore, and we decided to meet at a cafe so that I could make sure it was really her. She was.
What I expected was something akin to "You know, your blog is really nice, good job right there, I almost believed it, How have you been and what is really up?" but what I got wasn't anything like that.
She did not, amazingly, question my sanity nor this blog at all. When I met her, she looked at me with a concerned expression. I could practically hear her thinking: 'At least I don't look that tired..., do I?'
She told me she believed that I wasn't making this up, because apparently her sister had been going through similar stuff. (This is weird, because I don't remember her having a sister...) She told me about her sister suddenly starting to complain about a noise that nobody else heard, That sounded like white noise, but more high pitched, going all pale, avoiding the forests at all costs, starting to lose sleep, have nightmares and becoming paranoid. My old friend also stated that because of being extremely concerned about her sister, "I started to lose sleep as well and got really anxious about everything." She then told me that her sister had also talked about (translated from Finnish) "The Shadow-man in the forest". At this point I also found out that her sister was quite young, around two and a half years old.
We talked for a while, and I agreed to meet her again, but unfortunately the school is on the way for both of us and therefore we were both unable to arrange a day that would have been okay for both of us during this month.
Don't know what I should think about this. She said not to give too many details about herself in here. Unfortunately I had to write this down, because I still document everything that is happening to me.
I still have my suspicions, Katja. I remember you, but....
/////// EDIT: Katja contacted me on twitter while I was writing this and apparently she might be able to meet up again this month.
-Darkn3z
What was taking my time?
I had an old friend call me, Someone I was friends with for a couple of years during my 2nd-5th grades, until she moved away. We kept writing letters to each other for a short while, but then we moved on. I didn't know Katja had my number, which of course made me feel suspicious. She had read my blog and realized it was me behind it for various reasons, and found my number (from one of the letters we used to write to each other, she said.) and called me, because of something she didn't yet mention, but she wanted to meet me in person. I hesitantly agreed to meet her.
She didn't live exactly far away from me anymore, and we decided to meet at a cafe so that I could make sure it was really her. She was.
What I expected was something akin to "You know, your blog is really nice, good job right there, I almost believed it, How have you been and what is really up?" but what I got wasn't anything like that.
She did not, amazingly, question my sanity nor this blog at all. When I met her, she looked at me with a concerned expression. I could practically hear her thinking: 'At least I don't look that tired..., do I?'
She told me she believed that I wasn't making this up, because apparently her sister had been going through similar stuff. (This is weird, because I don't remember her having a sister...) She told me about her sister suddenly starting to complain about a noise that nobody else heard, That sounded like white noise, but more high pitched, going all pale, avoiding the forests at all costs, starting to lose sleep, have nightmares and becoming paranoid. My old friend also stated that because of being extremely concerned about her sister, "I started to lose sleep as well and got really anxious about everything." She then told me that her sister had also talked about (translated from Finnish) "The Shadow-man in the forest". At this point I also found out that her sister was quite young, around two and a half years old.
We talked for a while, and I agreed to meet her again, but unfortunately the school is on the way for both of us and therefore we were both unable to arrange a day that would have been okay for both of us during this month.
Don't know what I should think about this. She said not to give too many details about herself in here. Unfortunately I had to write this down, because I still document everything that is happening to me.
I still have my suspicions, Katja. I remember you, but....
/////// EDIT: Katja contacted me on twitter while I was writing this and apparently she might be able to meet up again this month.
-Darkn3z
10/17/2014
Stop.
We all know what this is about, don't we?
Click this and see for yourself...
Yeah, so that happened.
You are taunting me, aren't you? But from the code (which was coded using a grid of 5x5, A: 11, B: 12 C:13 ...F:21 G:22....) I suspect I have named yet another "villager." s/he calls him/herself "The Nurse" (Because the code below decoded is TO THE NURSE.)
the code:
Click this and see for yourself...
Yeah, so that happened.
You are taunting me, aren't you? But from the code (which was coded using a grid of 5x5, A: 11, B: 12 C:13 ...F:21 G:22....) I suspect I have named yet another "villager." s/he calls him/herself "The Nurse" (Because the code below decoded is TO THE NURSE.)
the code:
44 34
44 23 15
33 45 42 43 15
"Are we the same or are we like you?" Uhh. I have no idea what that means. Referring to what the person said on the phone ("We're... Most of us are... Like you.") probably.
Uh. Is the medication part referring to the pills I found?
I won't take them.
God knows what they are, and I don't really want to die. Right?
IF I ever change my mind, I will inform you about it.
Are you implying that I'm insane? "Or are you ill" no. Fuck off. Don't you even dare to imply that I haven't thought about that nonstop since this begun! Every single day, I wake up from 2-4h of sleep, the same fucking thoughts replaying in my head over and over again: "what if I'm insane, what if this is just my mind turning against me?" But every time I reassure myself that it's not the case; where could I have obtained those pills, why did the call appear in my phone log, why are the pictures fucking up? You hear me on this, 'Nurse', I don't like you. You are playing mind games with me, but I somehow know you're a fucking asshole. That's the feeling I get.
I will be having a busy weekend so don't you fucking dare, villagers.
I decided to find them. I decided that I will find the answer to all this, mainly, "why me" and "what is happening", but also, "who the fuck are the villagers".
But not because they want me to.
It's because I will end this, one way or another.
-Darkn3z
Uh. Is the medication part referring to the pills I found?
I won't take them.
God knows what they are, and I don't really want to die. Right?
IF I ever change my mind, I will inform you about it.
Are you implying that I'm insane? "Or are you ill" no. Fuck off. Don't you even dare to imply that I haven't thought about that nonstop since this begun! Every single day, I wake up from 2-4h of sleep, the same fucking thoughts replaying in my head over and over again: "what if I'm insane, what if this is just my mind turning against me?" But every time I reassure myself that it's not the case; where could I have obtained those pills, why did the call appear in my phone log, why are the pictures fucking up? You hear me on this, 'Nurse', I don't like you. You are playing mind games with me, but I somehow know you're a fucking asshole. That's the feeling I get.
I will be having a busy weekend so don't you fucking dare, villagers.
I decided to find them. I decided that I will find the answer to all this, mainly, "why me" and "what is happening", but also, "who the fuck are the villagers".
But not because they want me to.
It's because I will end this, one way or another.
-Darkn3z
10/12/2014
A call
My phone has been fucking up a lot lately, but I don't think this was a part of the lagging. I got a call earlier today, which left me creeped out and eager to know more.
There was no number, it was a private number (and therefore I couldn't call back) which alarmed me. I usually don't get prank calls as I don't have any real enemies nor friends for that matter, and given the situation that I'm in, anything out of the ordinary will catch my attention. I didn't record the call or anything, 'cause I didn't see that coming, but here's how I remember it:
Me: ...Hei? (Which means obviously Hi/Hello)
Caller: *Raspy breathing and static*
Me: ...Kuka siellä? ("who is this?")
Caller: *long silence*
Me: Älä jaksa. Et oo tosissas? ("Stop it. Are you serious?")
Caller: .....Do you know? (s/he spoke english...)
Me: Aw hell no. I'm going to end this call right now. Where did you even get my number? (at this point I guessed it was someone from the other blog) Who is this anyway? From the, uh.. villagers?
Caller: Liar.
Me: ............... (I was wondering if I should throw my phone at the wall or not and decided not to. I wanted information!) Well fuck you. I won't end the call. what do you want?
Caller: I... (more static and a glitchy silence so I didn't hear what was being said.) No.
Me: Do you even speak Finnish... (The most random question to pop into my mind at that moment.)
Caller: We... (static) do.
Me: Then why English? What do you want? What is going on? Which one are you??
Caller: Because (loud static) .... ....(unintelligible)
Me: Is this a prank? You read my blog, don't you? You just want to freak me out, right? Where did you get my number? Who are you?
Caller: *static and distant, somewhat taunting laughter.*
Me: Oh no. There's more of you?
Caller: (The person changed. this time it was a voice that went through a voice changer, as it sounded unnatural.) Why... would we prank you?
Me: Finally. Someone who speaks normally. (I froze for a moment because I had to form the sentence in my mind before asking.) ....So, who's this, then? What are you, and what might you want from me? Also, for the record, if you wanted to scare me, you did well. Slow clap for you, sir. (I clapped, trying to calm myself by sounding more sarcastic. maybe I wanted to be in charge of the situation again. I had been sitting on my bed, but now I got up, and started walking around the house as I spoke, to relieve my restlessness and anxiety.)
Caller: *more distorted laughter, obviously not the first person or the one holding the phone in the other end.* We're..... Most of us are... Like you. Our intention..? -wasn't scaring you... *static* There are... many loose ends. Shouldn't you be.. looking for... Answers?
Me: What... what do you think I am doing?
Caller: Nothing.
Me: That is rude.
Caller: ...................
Me: How many of you are there? Which- who are you?
Caller: Three.
Me: That isn't fair. Three of you or you are the third.... uh, the... Elder?
Caller: I am not.... no.
Me: Then which one are you?
Caller: does it matter?
Me: Yes! Also, why the voice changer? afraid of using your own voice?
Caller: I am not... the first nor the fourth. *chuckling noise from the background*
Me: Where are you?
Caller: Near.
*the call ends.*
The call ended about two hours ago, at 11:27 am. I wrote down all I got, which is:
-There was 3 callers, or at least that's what s/he said and what it sounded like. The actual caller, the second person who spoke somewhat normally and someone in the background, laughing from time to time.
-s/he might have hinted that the persons present were the second, the third and the fifth, or "the Smiler", "the Elder" and someone who I don't yet know, who writes in green.
-I'm pretty sure the person laughing in the background might just have been "the Smiler". The laughing just fits too well, and I got this feeling...
-"most of us are like you"
- This person wants me to do something. ("shouldn't you be looking for answers?")
-The person speaking was not the first nor the fourth ("Judge")
-They are "near".
This left me incredibly paranoid, And I had to calm down for quite a while. I took my time writing everything I remember down and thinking about how they got my number. I don't have many people except my relatives that know my phone number, and I haven't seen my old friends from elementary school for a good while. I'm just wondering....
Also, nothing remarkable has happened during this week. Still here, still alive.
-Darkn3z
There was no number, it was a private number (and therefore I couldn't call back) which alarmed me. I usually don't get prank calls as I don't have any real enemies nor friends for that matter, and given the situation that I'm in, anything out of the ordinary will catch my attention. I didn't record the call or anything, 'cause I didn't see that coming, but here's how I remember it:
Me: ...Hei? (Which means obviously Hi/Hello)
Caller: *Raspy breathing and static*
Me: ...Kuka siellä? ("who is this?")
Caller: *long silence*
Me: Älä jaksa. Et oo tosissas? ("Stop it. Are you serious?")
Caller: .....Do you know? (s/he spoke english...)
Me: Aw hell no. I'm going to end this call right now. Where did you even get my number? (at this point I guessed it was someone from the other blog) Who is this anyway? From the, uh.. villagers?
Caller: Liar.
Me: ............... (I was wondering if I should throw my phone at the wall or not and decided not to. I wanted information!) Well fuck you. I won't end the call. what do you want?
Caller: I... (more static and a glitchy silence so I didn't hear what was being said.) No.
Me: Do you even speak Finnish... (The most random question to pop into my mind at that moment.)
Caller: We... (static) do.
Me: Then why English? What do you want? What is going on? Which one are you??
Caller: Because (loud static) .... ....(unintelligible)
Me: Is this a prank? You read my blog, don't you? You just want to freak me out, right? Where did you get my number? Who are you?
Caller: *static and distant, somewhat taunting laughter.*
Me: Oh no. There's more of you?
Caller: (The person changed. this time it was a voice that went through a voice changer, as it sounded unnatural.) Why... would we prank you?
Me: Finally. Someone who speaks normally. (I froze for a moment because I had to form the sentence in my mind before asking.) ....So, who's this, then? What are you, and what might you want from me? Also, for the record, if you wanted to scare me, you did well. Slow clap for you, sir. (I clapped, trying to calm myself by sounding more sarcastic. maybe I wanted to be in charge of the situation again. I had been sitting on my bed, but now I got up, and started walking around the house as I spoke, to relieve my restlessness and anxiety.)
Caller: *more distorted laughter, obviously not the first person or the one holding the phone in the other end.* We're..... Most of us are... Like you. Our intention..? -wasn't scaring you... *static* There are... many loose ends. Shouldn't you be.. looking for... Answers?
Me: What... what do you think I am doing?
Caller: Nothing.
Me: That is rude.
Caller: ...................
Me: How many of you are there? Which- who are you?
Caller: Three.
Me: That isn't fair. Three of you or you are the third.... uh, the... Elder?
Caller: I am not.... no.
Me: Then which one are you?
Caller: does it matter?
Me: Yes! Also, why the voice changer? afraid of using your own voice?
Caller: I am not... the first nor the fourth. *chuckling noise from the background*
Me: Where are you?
Caller: Near.
*the call ends.*
The call ended about two hours ago, at 11:27 am. I wrote down all I got, which is:
-There was 3 callers, or at least that's what s/he said and what it sounded like. The actual caller, the second person who spoke somewhat normally and someone in the background, laughing from time to time.
-s/he might have hinted that the persons present were the second, the third and the fifth, or "the Smiler", "the Elder" and someone who I don't yet know, who writes in green.
-I'm pretty sure the person laughing in the background might just have been "the Smiler". The laughing just fits too well, and I got this feeling...
-"most of us are like you"
- This person wants me to do something. ("shouldn't you be looking for answers?")
-The person speaking was not the first nor the fourth ("Judge")
-They are "near".
This left me incredibly paranoid, And I had to calm down for quite a while. I took my time writing everything I remember down and thinking about how they got my number. I don't have many people except my relatives that know my phone number, and I haven't seen my old friends from elementary school for a good while. I'm just wondering....
Also, nothing remarkable has happened during this week. Still here, still alive.
-Darkn3z
10/03/2014
Some answers?
The code from the hack post has been decoded:
WATCH OUT
Still hiding your face?
The Watch out part was easier, I had to go five letters backwards from the starting letter and I would get the right one. I got the idea from my old "secret language" we used with our friends when we were younger... I just wonder... how'd they know?
The next part then, It was easy, but my brain refused to figure it out at first.
00 - A
01 - B
02 - C
03 - D
...
09 - J
10 - K
20 -L
30 - M
...
90 - T
100 - U
200 -V
...
And so on. as long as it has a zero in it.
I'm not hiding. I'm keeping private information off of the internet...
Anyways, there was a new post in The Village blog.
Title: C O L O U R S (<- British way of writing it, the same one they teach in our English classes at Finnish schools as well.)
WATCH OUT
Still hiding your face?
The Watch out part was easier, I had to go five letters backwards from the starting letter and I would get the right one. I got the idea from my old "secret language" we used with our friends when we were younger... I just wonder... how'd they know?
The next part then, It was easy, but my brain refused to figure it out at first.
00 - A
01 - B
02 - C
03 - D
...
09 - J
10 - K
20 -L
30 - M
...
90 - T
100 - U
200 -V
...
And so on. as long as it has a zero in it.
I'm not hiding. I'm keeping private information off of the internet...
Anyways, there was a new post in The Village blog.
Title: C O L O U R S (<- British way of writing it, the same one they teach in our English classes at Finnish schools as well.)
Link: C O L O U R S
Guess what, smilerdude.
fuck off.
I did get good grades, thanks for asking, douche. all I can say is, I'm happy that it wasn't encoded into gibberish or something.
Maybe I'll try writing something when I am not as pissed as I am now.
-Darkn3z
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